Alvie's World

did I shave my leg for this?
11:47 a.m. on 2003-04-03

Well, hello everyone. It�s me alvie, once again writing to you to let you know that I am alive and um well I guess. Let me just say that nothing really exciting has happened as of late. I did have a birthday yesterday, and thank you to everyone who sent me birthday wishes, it was really nice. I just got off the phone, leaving a message to my mother, that she forgot my birthday. Can you believe that? Never has my mother forgot to call and say happy birthday. I waited up till midnight but no call. She did call a couple of days before and say that she wanted to do something and bring my gifts over, but we agreed that next Monday would be better. But still, she should have called. I am so unloved.

Ok enough of the self-pity thing, I am not much for that. I am really a very fortunate person, and should be happy with what I do have. I will tell you though, everybody, I do feel lonely here a lot lately. I don�t know why I just can�t get up enough courage to venture out on my own and meet somebody. All my friends are couples now so you know what that means, they are humping like bunnies and doing the couple thing so there is no time for me. Stop it, I am done with the self-pity thing damn it.

So yesterday I took myself to the mall, and to various other places and spent a couple hundred dollars on myself, buy this and that. You know, its no fun buying things for myself anymore. Oh my gosh and get this. Like yesterday was cold here, and I was bored to death around oh eight o�clock, so I decide to take a bath, drink coffee, and read a book at the same time. I ended up reading a chapter, finishing the coffee, and shaving one of my legs. Just one of them. It is the first time I have ever shaved my legs, or leg I should say. Its smooth as a baby�s ass, and I put some lotion on it, then I got to thinking, how bored am I when I find shaving my leg as a way to kill time. God I need help.

So I have a fire going right now. Not in the fireplace either. It�s deep down inside of me. What I am trying to say, is for some reason, I am super horny lately. I don�t know if it stems back from the St. Patrick�s day sex or what but fuck, my dick is so hard at times, it could be considered a lethal weapon. So I made up this little game when I am masturbating, called. Um never mind, I know that is too much info. It�s just that for some reason I feel like super sex guy. Only the sex in not existent. Well, like I was saying, I think I going to seriously start to get myself out there and mingle. I did get this cute guy the other night, last Thursday to be exact, leave me his number at the restaurant. This was so cute. I haven�t called him yet, I just might do it. It was so cute, he was very flirty but I was off in my own little world that night. He left his number around a couple of self-drawn hearts and it says just Ruben Lopez and his number. So Ruben if your out there you sexy ass, maybe I will call this weekend.

Speaking of doing things that are illegal, do you want to know something that I have done? I don�t smoke pot at all, and if you do, well that is your own choice. I have tried it before and really it did nothing for me. So being me, I did it about 6 or 7 more times just to be sure I wasn�t missing out on anything. God forbid I should miss out on some fun. Nothing, it did absolutely nothing for me at all. Well I did go to taco bell and order nearly one of everything off the menu, but other than that it sucked. I have never done anything harsher than that though, I am just not into drugs. Well, anyway before my uncle turned into a Jehovah�s Witness he grew pot in the mountains. He recruited my cousin and I to go check in on his crop about two times a week. We had to make sure that the drip lines were working, and to make sure no rats or deer were chewing away at his cash crop. We were promised a bonus come harvest time. You know what that ass did, kept all of the money. Sold his crop, got his cash and found God. The fucker. Didn�t give us one damn penny. I tell you what, this is going to sound crazy, but I have never been more frightened than going to the �crop� but in a way it was so exciting. I know this doesn�t sound like me at all, but maybe that is why I did it. Just to try out that dangerous little side of me. I don�t know. I would never ever do it again, but dang that was wild.

Have you ever wondered about people and just what goes through their mind? I do that often. Like one time, I had a roommate who my god was so damn hot. Umm used to walk around in just his friggin boxers and had a body that would melt butter and leave precum on my pants but anyway. So one day we were at the apartment and I don�t know if he thought he was alone or what, but he left the door to his room open, and I went in to tell him something. When I entered his room and turned the corner he was sitting on the toilet beating off. My heart leaped out of its chest and my god I am sure I let out a gasp, moan or some sort of sound. This room mate had the biggest ding dong I have ever seen. He was working it good too. (must have gotten some tips from me) Oh yeah back to my thoughts, I swear for a minute there I went back in my own little world and was looking at those images burnt into my mind. So you say what was so shocking about that. Well he was looking at a magazine, and not a porn one either. It was a dog magazine. Like it had hunting dogs in it and told stories of how to raise and train dogs. I often wonder what in the hell was he thinking about as he was working that tower of his? I just hope that he wasn�t looking at those cute �bitches� while he was doing his thing. I never did get caught looking. He was so into the stroking and reading or whatever that he never looked up. As a side note, I saw him masturbate often. Can I help it if he left his curtains open to his room and I liked to sit on the patio, at 11pm? God I am a shameless dork.

On a final note here is one that I truly believe: I don't know the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everybody.

Take care of yourself and each other, Love ya��Alvie



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