damn porn star blew it
12:19 a.m. on 2003-03-26
First let me just say sorry because I have been so damn busy getting caught up on school work to put an entry in here. You would think I would get my homework done on time but no not me. Can I just tell you all how cute I looked today. Well, I did. God I am so damn bad.
Well lets see I have just given my seventh blowjob today. Joke, I just wanted to say that. I have only serviced one and its been what nearly two weeks ago? I am not counting the others back when because they were too long ago, so I am starting over. Its cool isn't it? So here I am a born again blowjob virgin sucking on an otter pop. Lord, atleast I am practicing.
I have a secret crush on someone right now. I don't know why I am saying this but I do. My little head has been working overtime, along with my hand as I masturbate using images in my mind of us kissing and fucking around. I think that me having sex the other day was not such a good idea. If you havn't had chocolate in a long time then eat some, you want chocolate all the time. Thats how I have become. I want someone here with me. I guess that is going to have to wait for a while anyway.
I haven't heard from my friend Jesse in quite sometime, I hope his boyfriend hasn't turned him straight and caused him to hate gay guys too. Have you ever noticed that people who hate themselves will often take it out on others? Why is that? Seems like they would want to have the friendship of others and want to draw people closer instead of pushing them away? Crazy? Yes.
Speaking of crazy, when I let that damn porn star from the internet move in with me a while back,(he turned out to be bi, well might as well say straight)you know what he did. He took all the sheets off of the waterbed I had in the spareroom, put olive oil all over the bed and had sex with a woman in there. To top it all off, I can remember him coming out with a boner, staring me in the face,(I was sitting on the sofa) and saying Kat, wants you to come in there with us. I was like what in the fuck? I did want to reach out and touch something right then and there, but there was no way I was going to go in there for a bisexual threesome. Sometimes I wonder, who would of humped who? I was like no, thats ok, I am going to bed and then I did. I threw the bed away as soon as I got his ass out of my house. Bastard. He could of had it so good to, oh well his loss. I swear, if he kept his mouth shut he was cute as hell. But as soon as he started talking, telling lies, and being himself I guess, even his hot body and good looks couldn't do it for me. I tell you, I would rather have a plain nice guy, than a sexy ass lying stupid porn star. I still remember his first line he gave me when he came to my house. Your eyes are beautiful. My stupid ass bought it hook line and sinker. I was thinking oh my gosh he thinks I am cute. Guess I have grown up a little and now I am always wondering in the back of my mind, just what people want. Every now and again, I put in his porn tape and watch him hump some guy and curse his ass out. The fucker.Wow, guess I was and still am a little upset with him. He stole from me too, but thats another story.
So anyway I saw Mr. 10 incher yesterday and he was acting all funny. Not bad funny, but just like curious funny. I am going to get to the bottom of it. I want to go out again. I have been on a no booze spree for what like 9 days or something like that? A beer or two this weekend wouldn't kill me. Who knows. Some of you who read this need to come up and go out to the club with me. I would be real shy but I would probably do it.
Oh my god, the other day me and Jesse and Juan were driving somewhere and let me tell you Juan drives like old people fuck, slow and sloppy. He was in other peoples lanes and not keeping his eyes on the road and I swear more people honked at us. I couldn't believe it. I asked him when he got his licence and I dont think he ever answered me. If you see a silverish toyota corolla coming your way get the fuck off the sidewalk cause he is gonna hit your ass. My god, I was scared to death. I love Juan to death, but damn that dude needs a bike and a helmet. I will take the knee pads. God I am a whore.
Anyway let's see what else has gone on. Its harder to write when your sober. I edit myself too much. I get something down and then I think I can't say that they will think this or what ever.
Well, this is short but I have to get going, I am teaching fifth graders in 5 hours, wish me luck.
On a final note: A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart, and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words." Take care and I really really really do love ya....Alvie
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cumming soon - 2003-08-07