Is there a cock in his bed?
12:45 a.m. on 2003-02-25
Where to start? Well, I took the day off once again. I don't know how my gay ass pays all of my bills. I swear I am off more than I work. Let me see I don't think anyting exciting happend today. I did get an email from the guy who sold me his porn cd. You know the one I have been waiting to get going on now three weeks. He sent me to some other site that he sells videos on to look at another video, and my god let me tell you, I never in my life seen such stuff as I saw on there. Do you know they have guys auctioning off undies and such. Oh these aren't those sexy undies that I would look good in, no get this you all, these teen boys, sell cummed up undies. I was like what in the fuck will they think of next. I was like who in the world would ever come to this site? Well, two hours later I noticed that I had seen all I wanted to see. I was tempted to run over to target and buy up all the undies they had, cause god knows I could use the cash.(nice thought but I am going to pass on that) Lord look at all that money making material I have wasted by throwing it into the hamper.
To each their own I guess. Just really shocked me.
I got a lot of messages in my guestbook yesterday and I thank you all. Its so nice to think that someone would take time out of thier day and share it with me. I do want to talk about two of them though. The first one is to the guy who said I was a sick fag and should die, sorry, I am who I am and you don't have to read this if you don't like. It has taken me a long time to realize that I don't have to be ashamed because I am gay. Its only one part of me, but it is who I am. The next is to the young lady who says she likes gay people but thinks that having gay sex is a sin, well sorry, but you are free to believe what you will. I don't believe that way, but I won't try to change your mind. Its something you will have to deal with. My mind is made up. I was born gay, so if anyone is to blame love you can't blame me. The one thing that I thought was funny was she said what if some beautiful woman threw herself at you, and don't you find boobies sexy. Well, I do love Dolly Parton, but I doubt I would want to fuck her. Fact is I have had sex with a woman once. I was going through that denial phase. I think some gay men go through this. I thought if I try some cootchie I will be a man. OOOOH was I so wrong. I was like fuck here I am in a hotel room, beers drank both of us naked and nothing. I was embarrassed because she was like my boss from a previous job. Not my direct boss, but a boss non the less. I really did something that no gay man should ever have to do. I ate cootchie. Dear god I even though its been some time ago the thought still haunts me. First of all I just don't get how straight men get so turned on by that thing going on down there. I feel like at any time now just me saying I was going down on a woman, the gay police are going to come and take away my offical gay badge. But yes, dear friends I went down on that love pit. I knew it was so wrong. I was so just unattached. She wasn't though. That bitch had my head in a leg lock that I couln't get out of. She nearly killed me with that grip of hers. And boys and girls the bucking she was doing nearly knocked me out. I was making all kinds of sounds, and I guess she thought I was liking it just as much as her. If she would of shut up that loud moaning of hers she would of heard me yelling for air. Never again. I got out of that wet bed and washed my face and brushed my teeth. Icky I tell you, girls I love you to death and yes your beautiful, but god save me cause I don't want to fuck you. I hope that answers your question guest.
Well have I embarrassed myself again or what? Like I say, I never know what I will say until I sit down and have my first beer. Yep, still corona light. I cut back on dinner so I am having two of them tonight.
Three more nights until I get to go to that gay mecca Faces. Will this queer get the balls to dance with a guy? I sure hope so.
On a final thought, I know your all going to say this guy has crossed the line but I have bought a cock for my bed. Now don't go getting the wrong idea, its a stuffed animal, and no I am not going to hump it like I did my pillow......alvie
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